I can be cliche and say:
I'm vegetarian, I love to bake, I love to wear dresses and skirts, etc, I'm pretty quiet and awkward, and I'm a stripper
oh yeah, and I complain a lot on here :)
Giving up and just living by myself under the radar or actually trying to better myself and truly not care when I feel like everyone is against me. This is a tough choice. I want to be happy. The former means I get to stay away from drama. The latter potentially has the ability to find me eternal happiness and satisfaction that I did something in my life or it could ruin me to where my life is shortened. I don’t know the right answer. I want to play it safe, but I’m worried.
when I think about my name, I’m surprised it is Nicholette. I feel as of Nicholette isn’t my true name. Kylie isn’t either. I feel as if I know who I am, but everyone tells me I won’t know until I am 25. There are always exceptions to rules. Am I an exception? I know what I want. I am aware of who I am and what I want, even given the young girl thought process. I think I…”love” this guy… Idk. I tend to be stupid. I almost feel that I’ll either stoop low and Marry unhappily rich or I will die before 30. Oh well. Life is life.
where I will be this time next year. Just this past year alone I have changed so much. My life is completely different. I’m not sure if it is a great thing. I have learned a lot about myself and I love that. But getting used to this “new” me is difficult. I’m finally honest with myself. I’m being selfish for the first time in my life and I have been so productive. I’m finally trying to push myself and be better for me, not anyone else. Huxley has changed my life dramatically and I have never been so happy. Despite his bad habits, he’s the best dog ever. If I graduate this year, I don’t know what is going to happen. I’m nervous. I still toy with the idea that I shouldn’t even be here, but I’ve worked so hard to give it all away so easily. I’m content. I want more for myself still. I want to be truly living my life to its full potential. But I can’t rush it. I’ve lost a few friends because of how busy and selfish I’ve been. I’m still trying to be ok with that. But I will be ok. I have to be.